What is Normal??

I know to alot of you that have read my blog, I have changed my writing pattern on what I write. Been going thru alot of changes over the last few months and just trying to channel my feeling in the right place so been writing them here. I welcome any comments that are not mean or cruel as to help me maybe understand what I am writing as at times they are the rambling of a crazy women confused

Did I take the wrong road in life?

You know over the last few months I have been reflecting on a lot of things. My past life of grow-up to this point and where I should go or stay from here! I have done some things I am happy about in my past and some not, we all tend to look-back on these thoughts from time to time, or many times over as I am doing now. As to did I take the right road in my life as we call it, or did I make a wrong turn some where? We grow-up wanting the world and thinking we have it by the tail and have the rest of our lives to change it and then...One day we suddenly wake-up and see that we are alot older and haven't done even a fraction of what we wanted to do or see, And then ask our selves why? This is what I am doing now... Maybe this only happens when we hit a cross-road in our many turns of life that we don't like or suddenly we find makes us un-happy or just didn't turn out like we thought would...So we end up looking back and trying to see where we went wrong and were their any signs on the road of life that had warning signs on them!! Maybe yes and maybe No! The sad part for me is that even when I think I saw them I kept going thinking I knew what I was doing and where it would go, but never thought I couldn't shift gears fast if needed too! I know we all have felt this at one time or another, and we will figure it out just as I will in time, only...This time I am alot older and it is starting to make me worry that maybe it won't be as easy to find the answer, as I am alot more set in my ways and bull-headed about things and don't want to face the fact I have messed things up because I wanted things my way, and finally got them and now they aren't what I thought they would or should be so now I am un-happy. I know I will figure it all out in my own time just feeling abit confused on things right now with - New town, Home, Job, Kids, My Boyfriend (left behind)Who ask me to marry him after I moved, as we seem to fight even more now. My X-husband, His new girlfriend-he lives with(who my kids call mom-now after only knowing her 2-wks), Money, Bills-old & new, Cars(breaking-down faster then I can fix) I know you all think this is rambling of a crazy women, maybe it is, but I am that crazy women and I don't feel a shrink knows the answers anymore then me or god. So till I do, I will write my thoughts and feeling here till I figure out what the hell I am doing or not doing right!! I welcome any thoughts, if you have been thru this or have a second sight on life, But keep your cruel remarks and thoughts to yourself as this could someday be you writing this too! Thanks Bloggers for letting me vent.